After weeks, well really months, of deliberation, stress, indecision and just a jumble of emotions I have decided that some changes are in order in my life.
I have spoken recently about dreams here and my pursuit to make mine come true. I shared one of my dreams involving photography and my passion for it and the hope to be able to share it with others in a bigger way and I am working really hard towards making that a reality.
In the crazy cyclone of activity that I have been putting myself through with the kids, my business, my dream catching and life in general I have found that I am just not happy. I have been so stressed about everything that I have on my plate that I am unable to enjoy the dreams that are already fulfilled and really enjoy the passion behind my dreams that are still waiting to be brought to life.
It took some encouragement through wonderful posts by this incredible lady and some real soul searching on my own to get to this point but it was this videothat pushed me over the edge. It was such a bittersweet reminder of what is really important in my life right now and how quickly it all slips by. I just don't have time to do anything that doesn't bring me joy or enrich my life in some profound way and the way I have currently been doing things just isn't working. I want to enjoy my kids, not brush them aside because I have so much work to do and orders to get done. I have no time to develop passions like my photography and other dreams that have laid dormant and I have begun to resent that.
It is time for a change and I am ready to make it.
Tonight I will be putting my shop and website on vacation while I work on the changes I want to make. I love to design clothing and don't necessarily want to stop doing it, it just can't be the way that I have been right now. I will be re-opening my shop as a ready-to-ship store. I will be making up a number of items in various sizes and that is what will be available in the store. I will post here and Facebook when new items are listed. I will no longer be making items to order or doing any custom work. I can't tell you what a huge relief it will be to get an order in and not have to go through the whole process I have to now, especially when I or my kids are sick! All I will have to do when an order comes in is wrap it up pretty and send it on it's way. It also gives me a chance to be more creative and add one-of-a-kind and limited items in between collections since I won't be bogged down with making 6 orders at once. It will give me a chance to slow down and do this on a smaller scale. I can spend more time with my kids, working on my photography and just enjoying life.
When my kids are older and I have nothing to do, I can always come back into it full steam ahead and maybe realize some dreams that I once had for Little Lotti. Until then, I am so happy to finally be able to get the weight that has been sitting on my shoulders off and start enjoying my life, my family and my other passions.
If you have read all that and it makes some sort of sense to you, I thank you. I can ramble sometimes;)
Theshopwill close tonight at 8pm EST so if there is anything that you want to make sure you are able to get in the size you need be sure to head over and place your order:)
